Why am I learning so slowly?

“You were taught, with regard to your former way of life, to put off your old self, which is being corrupted by its deceitful desires; to be made new in the attitude of your minds; and to put on the new self, created to be like God in true righteousness and holiness.”  Ephesians 4:22-24.

Verses chosen from today’s Bible reading; Ephesians 1-4.

I was taught, alright.

My problem isn’t with the teaching.  It’s with carrying out what I’ve learned.

It is a sad state of affairs when you know something and yet you don’t act accordingly.  If I do that with the weather, I might get a little cold or wet.  With the things of God, it is a slippery slope to behaving godlessly.  It’s a place I don’t want to be!

I am wrestling lately with consistency in my walk with God.  The only good I’m finding in the experience is that I am quickly distressed by my waywardness.  I want to fix it and the sooner the better.

But I am still drawn to separation from God.  I still unintentionally drift apart from Him.  I go waking hours without awareness of Him.  That won’t get me where I want to be.

I know the relationship with God that I want.  I can envision it.  I have a sense for what it would be like, yet I regularly migrate away from what could be.

I continue, by using the words of today’s verses, to put on the godless clothes even though I have Godly ones.  The “new” will be so much better.  Why would I ever, for any reason, even consider the old?

I must make some definite stopping places in my day in which I remind myself of my relationship to God.  Here’s a few for me that would be good stopping places; (1) when I get up, (2) when I am about to interact with someone in the house, (3) when I leave the house, (4) when I am about to interact with someone during the away-from-home part of the day, and (5) when I return home.

I must have a quick prayer or verse ready to fill my mind with at those stopping points so that I will be mindful of the Godly track that I must be on.

“Lord, I need You every second.  I say that.  I have learned that.  I now want to live that.  Too many missed steps.  Too many regrettable godless times.  I want a tight, ongoing relationship with You, Lord.  Fill me with You.  Overwhelm me, I beg.  I love You, Lord.”

How do you keep from losing your connection to God?  Disconnection from God is never a good thing.


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