“Look and see, there is no one at my right hand; no one is concerned for me. I have no refuge; no one cares for my life. I cry to you, Lord; I say, ‘You are my refuge, my portion in the land of the living.’” Psalm 142:4-5.
When I’m lonely it is because I have forgotten God.
David was alone in a cave. Saul was nearby and certain to kill David if he found him.
David felt alone BUT he wrote that God was a refuge that never left. Others may have deserted him but not God.
When I run into a problem that I can’t solve, I’ve already approached it the wrong way. God needs to be in ALL the workings of my life.
When something gets difficult, I must know immediately that God is nearby, in fact, His Holy Spirit is in me. I have the comfort of His presence. Will the problem always immediately be solved? No. But God is with me during/after the struggle. We’re in it together!
Meditating on Psalm 142, I was again struck by the thought that if God isn’t the One I live with, and turn to, then the Adversary is. There is no in-between space. Too often that “space” exists in my mind – “I’ll do it my way. I’ll react my way. I’ve got this one. ” There is no, “my way.” I am either doing God’s Work or the Adversary’s work.
Conclusion: My refuge is God or the Adversary.